I have been previously implementing a fresh creative project. A lot of energy and enthusiasm being spent. A lot of productive time making something totally new. Bouncing my ideas from others within a coaching group. But each time I set about a fresh journey of developing, I have discovered myself becoming angry.
How come this happen? What’s this anger about? What is going on?
My mentor and I were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: “It seems like the tender spots are your location angry”… yeah. Very tender. The anger is telling me something.
Discovering that it is not easy to keep an undertaking going with anger throughout, I wanted to find a way to be effective “through” or “around” the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing… something creative, but more mundane along with a bit mindless. This creative energy releases my thoughts to ensure I could “trick” my anger into thinking I am busy with other things.
Once i try this I refer to it as “spinning”. Spinning reminds me in the stories of the spinning wheel where I could get busy creating (like the wool around the wheel). This opens the door to metaphor and takes me far from my have to “control” a job.
After i began drawing this image… of your spinning wheel… I believed of “turning straw to gold”. I used to be reminded again with the story of Rumpelstilskin. You understand, the main one… the millers daughter, the dad says “she can spin straw into gold” towards the king… along with the king would like to check out this… if she cannot, she’ll be put to death… ? Then, an odd little man appears. He tells her the guy can spin straw into gold… but it’ll be at an expense to her.
I found the storyline and read several versions of it. It resonated with me. However, as I usually do, I could to logically “organize” the storyline. This caused me to be more frustrated, because i has not been seeing or feeling what this story was trying to inform me.
So I went back to my “dream capture” work. I read the story like it were a goal I’d had. Then, Used to do the subsequent:
Listed out every one of the characters
Listed the “key words” inside the story that resonated beside me
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat in my experience inside my current situation
After which… I started to note what the story was telling me. This is what I came across
The miscroscopic man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller’s daughter=rest/creativity/giving
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork… )
While these “characters” comes with an independent role, All the characters create one “psyche” to me. Many of us have of such qualities within us.
In order to make something, it takes much energy… and a lot rest is also needed. We should give of ourselves and request help.
In the end, a baby exists and we will not give it up. It can be our “creation” and we are surprised about what we have made. Also, what must be done to get there.
What did I learn?
Until this story resonates beside me. Also, this story will repeat itself again and again because i still create, rest, parents and finish a task. Even though Rumpelstilskin stomps himself into the ground after the storyline, that little man will probably be back… followed by time, I will know his name.
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